Life has a way throwing curveballs at you. Sometimes you need to swing away, and other times you need to go down looking. I have spent a lifetime of doing the "safe" thing. My am not really happy with where I have ended up. Do not get me wrong, I love my family and my new job is great, but this is not the way I really want to spend my life. The family life could be improved...but it seems that I am the only one who thinks it needs changing. I will keep working on that. All I ask for is less negativity and a friendlier atmosphere. Some day maybe that will happen.
The part that I can change is my job. I am really torn on this. My current job gives me great security, the benefits while not great are ok....although Suburban offered more for less. It is very flexible. The people I work with are all fantastic and some of them have actually become good friends. I cannot think of any negative aspects but one. There is one goal in my life that I have never achieved, and that has just been offered to me. I have always wanted to manage or to own a restaurant/hotel. Even in high school, I talked about it with one of my closest friends. It was our dream to become partners and open a restaurant/hotel.
Well, time goes by and things change. My friend is still dear in my heart, but he tangled with certain substances that changed his personality in a manner that I did not like. I still miss him..not the way he is now, but the way he used to be. But I digress.
Time goes by and things change...said that once, didn't I? I have worked in the hospitality industry, and only confirmed that I really do love it. I have also worked in the retail, waste management, energy, construction and entertainment industries. I have never been really happy in them. My current stint is a federal position doing government accounting...for the US Army, Fort Bragg and Fort Stewart more specifically. And like I said, I really like it. But is it what I really want to do with my life? NO IT IS NOT!!!
And then the news announces that The Alexander Hamilton Inn is closing the first of the year. I have worked there in the past and know its potential. Another friend wants to buy it and has asked me to not only manage it, but want sto make me Vice-present or something like that. He is offering about an 80% pay increase over my current pay. He has mentioned Full benefits. All he needs to add is a retirement plan with employer matching contributions, and I AM HIS BITCH for life. I would give up the security I have now...A job for life basically just to fulfill my dream. In the past 15 years, I have seen several people try to run the Inn and fail. What do I think that I can do differently? First of all, anyone that has ever dined there has seen the prices. I would make it more a family priced menu to begin with. Keep the fine dining foods, but tone them to a more affordable price. We do not live in Los Angeles, New York City, Boston, St. Louis or any of the big cities. As a matter of fact studies have shown that this area has a higher concentration of impoverished people in it that most of the country. That study was released maybe 3 or 4 years ago, could it have changed that much since then, I would bet not.
This is all a long-winded way of saying that I would change jobs, and that with his financial backing and my...um....well...um...my...um...well what ever he sees in me, that it can work.
On to another subject. John Kerry's comments: basically that if you do not get a good education you will be sent to Iraq, were the most inconsiderate thoughts I have ever seen expressed by a political figure. I think that he will never be given a chance to run for president again because this will be hard for people to forget. Just because some people disagree with president Bush, does not mean that we have to be insulting to our troops. They are the bravest men and women in the world. To go to a country that noone wants them in (not even our own people it seems) and have to survive in adverse conditions makes them all heroes in my book!!! Do you people realize that the front line marines basically live in their vehicles for 9 months at a time. They get about 10 minutes of phone time to talk to their families each month, their lives are at risk every second of every day (how can they sleep knowing this?) They do not even have the basic needs for every day life. That is why I have joined the adopt a soldier program at work. Every few days, we will be sending care packages to Iraq for the front line soldiers. It makes me proud to know that I can help them in one way or another.
Hear dfrom Gretchen today...she gave me a surprise phone call. She is the first Suburban employee to contact me since I left....of course, she is no longer a Suburban employee now, but she is still the first. Thanks Greta..........I really enjoyed hearing from you. See ya soon.
Last but not least, Monday I had a DR appontment, Actually was lectured for losing too much weight too fast. I have now lost 25 pounds in 8 weeks. Weighed in at 276.5 in his office. I am going to keep dieting the way I have been. Hope I can keep it up.
gotta go, c ya...